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Lonely beyond words but autistic, dealing with death of only friend.
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Your comment, about going to the grave on my own time really struck the chord. I also know that Kelli knew me well enough, and my avoidance of a lot of situations, that she would understand. It's today at 3 and I've already told her mom I can't be there and why. She said she'd miss me being there but that she "COMPLETELY" understands. Yeah, I'm a mom and I wouldn't wish losing a child on a worst enemy. My heart breaks for her mom. If it had been a Celebration of Life, (and obviously at a different time so I could be driven) I would have been much more open to the experience. I've decided that I don't do funerals. I never want to be buried, just cremate me and have a celebration of my life.
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Good morning @llymo5 I can imagine that yesterday was a rough day regardless. How are you doing today? I'm happy to hear that her mom was so understanding. Hopefully the two of you will keep in touch and share memories. Do you like crafty projects? How about making a photo album? A real one, not just a digital collection. I miss the old ways of creating art, so much is digital now, and I'm not a fan. I'd like to make a photo/memory project of my cancer journey. This past year has been a rollercoaster, and sometimes I still think, "Is this really happening to me?" I've experienced so many things that I never thought I would. But I just take it one day at a time and do my best to do something enjoyable every day.
Just checking in to see how you are holding up . Praying your memories bring you comfort
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llymo, I'm so glad you decided not to go. I wish I'd checked in and written so yesterday.
The friendship with your friend is something very personal. There's no need for you to make public displays. Maybe some day you can talk with her mother about how much her daughter means to you.
You understand your feelings very well, and please honor them.
I've had wonderful experiences at celebrations of life. One friend arranged for her celebration to be held a few weeks before her death from cancer. She said "I want to be there so I can enjoy it!" And she was and she did.