Hello there,
My heart goes out to you as you've really had it rough! May I ask which medical group or hospital you were treated at? I live in Orange County, California and was treated at Hoag - not a Center of Excellence and I believe they really messed up my possibilities to be "cancer free" for at least a year or two instead of 4.5 months. Waiting is difficult, and we never know the consequences because there are different versions of the pancreatic mutation; there is a chance it could come back but for how long, no one knows. There are survivors so I hope you are one of the lucky ones! Be your best advocate and read as much as you can about the disease - this site is a very good source of information. I lost 50 lbs in the process, but I did gain 25 back and I'm thankful because it will help me fare well over the next few months. I think everyone should be prepared as far as wills, living trusts, etc. I'm actually in the process of selling my home so that I can ensure and see my children get to enjoy at least some of the money! My advice, be vigilant about your health, knowledegable about the disease, participate in these discussions as we all know exactly what you are going through, and how you feel, and enjoy life to the fullest!