Really so are bipolar people dangerous? I just don’t understand the mental illness of it I feel like my meds make me very angry I was on them after I had my second daughter 17 years ago, And all she could tell me was what a horrible mother I was and I’m blaming the medication because if I was myself maybe I wouldn’t have been so terrible to her while she grow up, I was mean, They diagnosed me with bipolar because I was on ecstasy when I was 17 years old, I believe i only had adhd, but my ex-boyfriend told my mother I took Ecstasy and my mom got scared and sent me to the hospital high on ecstasy, They gave me a Klonopin riddin and respdone, my mom took me off the meds after being in the hospital for a month when I was 17, she said I wasn’t myself, My mother made a very bad decision sending me in there with my state of mind I was in it was a mistake , I didn’t have a chance to finish my Spiritual journey, and I told her way before I took that pill that my ex-boyfriend was doing drugs and here I was doing them with him, she took his word over mine, and believed him, so now my mind and Vision is permanently messed up from some kind of brain scan they did with goggles and lights in my eyes, I still see the patterns from those goggles to this day and in the sun there is fast zigzags in the clouds without my sunglasses and the back of my head hurts and feels fried, So I went back through all those feeling from fatty tissue and the pain when I got off the meds because the back of my head would hurt when I would feel any any real emotion, love, Nervousness, etc. so years later I had my first daughter I started feeling that angry weird strange feeling inside and decided to take meds again, And when I got off the medication two years ago well it took a long time for the meds to leave my bloodstream, I’ll tell you that. I have no idea what the half life is all about, but I was hallucinating and everything and I was crying for probably a year from all the mistakes I made with my family and putting my husband through hell on meds. I am looking into doing Hiawasse tea

Also, maybe my family just doesn’t like the person I am on or off meds, I know my mother in law stopped talking to me over not taking my meds and getting removed from my home, my own mother & family wouldn’t take me in before it got out of hand so being homeless for 6 months, the worst thing about all of this is that I was looking for a treatment center out of town away from here on my own and they called on me again, my kids didn’t and don’t understand why I was Verbally Torturing my husband, about cheating where was the money, and He was sick with lumps everywhere, wasn’t going to the doctor couldn’t go to work, we were in the process of losing the house, we have no car and they were concerned about me taking my meds. So I Eventually came home and 50 pounds heavier, miserable because of my knees and feet because of the weight and my husband is still sick and lying about going to work still, we still have no car, I haven’t seen a paycheck since I got home, so who is really crazy? I know it wasn’t all in my head. And to be honest with you on medicine my daughter told me that I was a horrible person while she was growing up so I’ve tried my hardest and Came to the conclusion they don’t like me. I am a great soul and they already judged me and decided what they think. Nothing can change anyone’s mind in this house, I have tried so hard to make my good soul shine and they just remember me being a devil, I guess. well that’s what it feels like anyways.