You and people like you (and us) are why I’m fighting so hard.

I told my doctor exactly what you said. She asked me if I ever thought of ending my life. I said yes, all the time only I want to go to Heaven and I believe in the Ten Commandments. I think about it daily. We had our dog who was in horrible agony put down this week. She suffered for such a long time I am sorry we made her go so long. We are grieving but I think--all the pain is over in less than a minute. Then I think of some movies I have seen about people who have died for a few minutes and then came back. I have seen more than one where people tried suicide and ended up in Hell. They came back but changed their lives and would never try it again. If I said too much, I am sorry. This is a great group.

@sunnyflower @cb772 @lioness if I could find a Pain-free guaranteed way to
End my life I would because of all pain and diseases. The risk is becoming a vegetable or other horrid things. I believe a merciful God would be sympathetic. A friend of mine who really delves into the Bible said as long as you say a sincere Act of Contrition before hand a God will accept you. I am not in imminent risk of suicide it is just too much to bear. My 3rd day in bed.