Hi Rachel,

Yes the video was a light bulb moment for me as well, with both positive and negative emotions. I am a highly analytical person and the video provides the technical aspects in addition to examples that help paint the big picture.

But being an OCD analytical engineer type person make things difficult as I have to focus and understand all aspects of my problems, symptoms. Now I can start to ignore and focus on areas I can control. I no longer feel I need to continue to search for answers to symptoms.

The many providers I interacted with gave similar feedback for 'treatment', but not in one cohesive message or at a single time. At first I was skeptical of any help from counseling. What I learned was use of some common sense type thinking. How can I make my life happier or how can I not make my life more miserable. (stress, metal, body). I think I have most of the pieces in place I need, with some work to go on some more than others.

The idea that my problems were not physically diagnosable was hard to swallow. In my head, really? The life changing relief of Dulux was proof though. Yes I'm clinically crazy, but still alive. Since meds I have worked on other sources of stress which has continued to made a positive difference.

The misery I have endured has changed me as a persons, for better in my view. I have become much more compassionate about other people and their challenges. I though I was stronger and somehow better than those who needed manage anxiety, mental or other weaknesses. Now I am a better husband and father.