@jixs Considering the PALB mutation I wonder if you might ask your doctor about meeting with a genetic counselor. Perhaps you've already done this given your past experiences that you shared in other posts here. I'd like to suggest that you write your questions down and have them ready to ask. This will make good use of the appointment time and you will feel prepared. Leave space below your questions so that you can take notes. Will you be accompanied by your spouse, partner, or a loved one? This is an appointment that shouldn't go to on your own. I know in my case I could barely "hear" what the doctor was telling me and I needed my partner present to listen and take notes.

I have a cancer surveillance appointment coming up next week (endometrial cancer diagnosed in 2019; recurrence in 2021). Like you, I live my life between these appointments and try not dwell on the possibility of another recurrence or a new cancer. As I come closer in time to the next appointment I can feel the anxiety ramping up again.

When is your next appointment?