Hi Kneenee, I am so sorry to read about all that you are going through. You sound a lot like me. I was in PT twice a week for six months. After the surgery, I felt so depressed. I was in a lot of pain and didn’t have an appetite. I lost 18 pounds at that time! I used a walker for quite a while, then went to a cane. I found the cane very helpful. My orthopedic surgeon did tell me that knee surgery is the roughest surgery anyone can have. Like you, I can never imagine getting my other knee done! Psychologically I just don’t think that I put myself through it again. All my best to you as you continue to heal. You *will* heal but it just takes a long time!