PTSD is such a huge and extremely hard subject! There can be similarities in triggers for many people, but each one of us is unique. God help us (seriously).

I never thought I would be diagnosed with PTSD, until I started spiraling down in burnout breakdown in the years around 2005. I became nearly non functional as a pastor, gradually becoming deeply depressed and suicidal. I finally listened to my doctor, who was telling me that I must retire before I killed myself. I was still 10 years from retirement, but I was in such a bad place that even I could see that it was time.

I was blessed with a loving childhood with 5 siblings, raised in a parsonage, always a safe place. It was safe except for being raised not to express any negative feelings. That area was neglected, though it wasn't intentional. My parents did better than their parents, who were very strict.

I hadn't connected the trauma I experienced as an adult with that style of child rearing until 2006, when I met with a psychiatrist for the first time. And I hadn't considered the possibility of PTSD. For me, it was the abusive and inconsiderate treatment I received from numerous bosses and other people that, combined with physical problems and depression, took me to the bottom of a deep dark hole. I don't know if I thought I deserved the abuse, but I tolerated it for 40 years. Big mistake!

I'm grateful for the great church that we attend, and for the assurances of God's loving care that I hear every Sunday from the pastors. Having healthy relationships, and having a healthy church are key to my being in as good a place as I am, along with a good marriage and the support of a therapist.

It's so sad when children are alienated from their parents. I can't pretend to know how awful that is, @1pjf. I will begin praying for the healing of that relationship. If you are comfortable, knowing your daughter's first name would help me pray.

I pray for each of us a year of greater peace as we move through the process of healing from all of the various trauma triggers. God does love us, for sure.

Jim