It’s truly frightening to read your comments, my heart goes out to you and the terrible nightmare you’re going through. I know you haven’t given up entirely because you’re here telling us about what is happening with you and that my friend is a very good sign…you have a survival instinct and it’s still working because I can sense it in your comments…don’t give up the fight, please remember that everyone here has or is going through the same thing you’re going through, maybe the circumstances vary but we are all trying to keep surviving. I don’t like to preach but I really care about you and being here is a good start to finding yourself again…reach out when you’re not feeling strong and someone will be there to help you…I also believe in prayer now more than ever and it’s truly helpful, good luck to you with your progress in finding ways to get help and be strong in your journey.