I’m sorry I feel like this I do t want to sound harsh but sadly I think this is just another bad thing about mental health that even with medication you will not feel whole. All I can say is do stuff you love to do or used to love. Hang out with friends and family. Maybe get a cat? If you don’t think that will work it might help to make sure the foods you eat don’t mess with your meds. Get good sleep not to much or to little. I know this won’t make you feel like you once did but now your on the path to great success.
ALSO I think it’s vary common of people to stop taking meds and all I can say is try and be strong it never works out in the long run

@bpforlife The end goal of management of any mental health disorder, it seems, is to be able to function more consistently on a day-to-day basis. Sometimes therapy, or in-depth introspection, or medications will be on our path to that consistency.

I do not have a bipolar diagnosis. But I do take a medication once a week with my cancer treatment, that gives me an "Energizer bunny" burst of adrenaline and energy for about 36-48 hours. Usually I accomplish a lot, but then crash when the effects wear off! So, making sure my diet is healthy, trying to add in moderate exercise, and getting good rest becomes key to helping me stay as productive as possible the rest of the week. It's a balancing act, to be sure!

Perhaps if you can train yourself to look at how much better you feel overall, and work on spreading the good energy you feel [physical and mental] throughout your days, may help. What do you think?
Ginger