Please note that I DO NOT have bipolar so I don’t know how it feels. But here’s my opinion. Ima try and keep it short but there could be a couple of things.
Wrong meds it might help to find some better ones even though it will be a hard/long thing.
Maybe you’re just going to have to learn to live with it 🙁 so try to find anything thing that gives you back that zest for life!
Try to keep your mind alive with mind puzzles
It could be a to high dose?
If I wear you I would try to talk to someone like a doctor or even therapist.
Please don’t just cold turkey your meds tho.
Like I said I have know idea what’s it’s like but I do believe I had a “maniac” episode and your right I miss not needing much sleep, not being tired, having SO many ideas, cleaning out my Entire room, and just making myself laugh. Then I crashed and it was awful! But the real kicker was, I “hurt” many people my mom, my family, and friends. I said some messed up things, got them into some trouble, and they didn’t like who I was and some even said I was off putting. Like I said I have NO idea what it’s like but I think some of that may be true to you and while it might feel nice for you it will not for others. Sorry for the long story but I do want the best for you and I believe in you. This might seem weird but if you want I would love to hear some updates on how you’re doing.❤️