@birdielox welcome to Mayo Clinic Connect. The first step in solving a problem is identifying that there is a problem in the first place. You are brave to say “ I’m a bad person and I don’t want to try to change”. But I think maybe you do or you wouldn’t be asking at the end of your post if there’s anything you can do….. You also show a sign of maturity acknowledging that what you are going through is probably what every other teen goes through. You are also correct in that idea. It takes time to become the person who you are meant to be. There will be rough patches along the way. Guess what? You never fully arrive even after you become a “grown up”. There will always be opportunities for growth and improvement in one way or another. I am going on 67 years old (I could be your grandmother). I believe there’s still hope for a better me. I would be remiss if I didn’t mention that I’m a Christian believer. I believe that we are ALL BAD people. BUT God loved us enough to give us Jesus to save us. Take this to heart and have a merry Christmas and a happy New Year.
PS some of the characteristics you described can be evidence of a mental health problem such as bipolar. If they persist or become unmanageable please seek professional help. In the mean time consider peer support groups that have common interests (clubs, sports, music, arts …..etc.) and your school counselor.