@Hi Tairree and all those who responded to my post of yesterday. Tairree yes I can see the frustration from both of us. I smile about what you said about getting a think it's called a Life Alert. I was with friends yesterday and we were discussing the fact that my balance and pain sometimes frightens me because of the possibility of a fall. We talked about getting the "Red Button" thing around my neck. I joke, but I a seriously considering it. I think some of my anxiety at not is caused by fear. I am not afraid of someone breaking in. I am afraid that if something happens I cannot reach anyone. I was feeling very sorry for myself a few weeks ago when it snowed. I didn't hear or see anyone so , yup, I cleaned a path and cleaned my car and cried the entire time. Hated every one for not being here and blah blah. I afterwards, as I was driving down the road, thought wow if I fell in the snow no one would find me until Spring. That is probably not true, but it would be a few days. Of course no one thought I would want to venture out. I am 73 and they know me and they know when I want something I want it and do what it takes to get it. Al kidding aside. The pain is real. My thumbs hurt so much right now I keep them tucked under while typing. I have lived alone in the past for several years and had no problem. However, I was 23 years younger. You know I have been prescribed Lyrica and/or gabapentin. Not sure why I didn't stay with it. I may talk to the doctor tomorrow about trying it again. I have a question for the group members. Do you feel extreme pain when a fear or an anxiety comes over you. My body immediately feels like a fire inside. A feeling of burning from the inside out. When that begins I know I will be in pain and the anxiety and pain will take over my boy and mind. I just don't know if this is the way I have to live or is there something else going on that needs attention. I do see a psychiatric nurse and she has prescribed Effexor and the Klonopin. Thank you everyone. I did get to Church and the grocery this morning and am ready for a nap.

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