So sorry to hear about your situation. Don't worry about venting as we all need to do that. All of us who had our lives changed dramatically in a very short time understand. I agree that watching our loved one struggle is the most difficult part. My wife and I get through this by living day by day, and a strong reliance on God to assist us. Things like the money situation seem daunting, but these issues can be solved in time. Our prayers are with all those struggling with this disease.