@davidstory. I truly feel for your struggles. I was an active local missionary when my cancer hit. The pain and I’m immuno-compromised state it left me with, made it impossible for me to continue my works. But I prayed to God, certainly this wasn’t all he had for me, right?

As much as we feel “called” to something, God sometimes has another plan for us. Our job is to open our minds and hearts to see what that might be given the current circumstances. I would encourage you to open your mind and your heart to other opportunities, specific ones you could be effective in given your current disabilities. Got is not disappointed in you!! Keep speaking His truth. You might also seek out other pastors who have experienced disabling pain, cancers, other health problems that have caused then to have to change their mission plans. You are in my prayers.