Thanks so much for the response. I now realize that there’s just nothing that can prepare one for what I'm experiencing. Physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. All aspects of my life have been significantly impacted. Of course, I'm singing to the choir. Physically, I really didn't think I would survive the other worldly pain and sickness while recovering. After about 4 weeks in, I started to feel a little bit better physically. Then, I crashed so hard emotionally and mentally. Intense anxiety and panic off the charts! Everyday, 24/7. Damn close to debilitating and incapacitating. This went on for a month. Everyday and every second feeling like I was going to completely lose control, flip out, go insane. It was basically one second at a time. I've never been so scared almost every waking moment.
Anyone else experience off the charts anxiety and panic during your recovery? Mayo, thankfully, prescribed some medications that relieved most of the anxiety and panic and is allowing me to sleep.
This has been like a horrible, pain ridden nightmare. It's a damn good thing that I never completely lost all hope!