I have nightmares about surgery. I used to work in and out of ER rooms.
Smoking is a common cause of BC. I quit in 2016 using a 111 page book by Allen Carr called Easyway to quit smoking. It's free online to download in PDF if you look it up. That is if you haven't yet quit. I was skeptical, but it worked and I wasn't hostile, aggressive, depressed. The book actually de-programmed the brainwashing about how hard it is to quit-
It's quite possible that I may have some kind of cancer, I suspect it, the health system in Spain is very different and there's a lot they don't tell you- they don't even touch you here, just sit behind a desk and type shit into a computer . . .
No, you never know what could happen. You have now and today, and your presence here is crucial for you.

My best to you for today.