So you are 87 years old. From my point of view I say big deal. I am 89 years old. Way past my expiration date. It was two years ago on this date that I had a full hip replacement. And that is it. For my age I am relatively in pretty good shape. I am sincerely sorry for all the medical problems you are having. That really sucks. For me the worst thing that has happened in my life is the loss of my husband. We were together for 62 years and married for 59 years. Even with therapy I am having a hard time dealing with this. Nevertheless, as an experiment (or whatever you want to call it) I have booked a short Alaska cruise. I have to see what happens when I go somewhere alone. At my age, this may indeed be my last trip. Anyway much good luck to you to have more years and for the wonderful doctor you have.