Please be as gentle with yourself as possible and ask for a lot of help. The surgery itself is a major challenge for your body. I found that the fatigue and intermittent mood swings (down mostly) were worse than the pain. It helped that I had been forewarned of those recovery issues. After a big injury, your body rushes immune factors (cytokines) to start the healing process. These are the same chemicals that make you exhausted and depressed with influenza or Covid infections. That will pass in a few weeks. I hope you can work with your surgeon to get on top of pain and stay on top as it is harder to keep beating back pain than to keep it at bay. It is an uncomfortable time and my warmest wishes go out to you as you go through this. Music, massage, holiday TV might be distractions while the process goes on. Time can be a great healer!