nrocpop, Thank you so much for your understanding as a Mother. I keep saying the same thing. Essentionally, how do I "move on" from my one and only child and my precious granddaughters. I have failed to be able to do so. My daughter is from my husband who died at the age of 28, and I was 23, so she is the daughter of the love of my life, making it all the harder. She has been the focus of my entire life from the day she was born. When she was born, my husband was in the same hospital in Cardiac ICU, waiting for his first open heart surgery. I found out later that the Drs decided to wait on the surgery until she was born so that he was able to see his daughter before he went in for his surgery. She was just 15 months old when he died. He had two open heart surgeries in a year. So, my feelings for her are also entangled in all the memories of her father. Again, thank you for understanding from a Mother's point of view. My counselor just doesn't seem to get that. And thank you for such wonderful advice. Your response was truly beautiful. ❤️
P