What's the matter with you people? HAVE YOU EVER LOST A CHILD??? no, YOU HAVEN'T or you wouldnt be telling ME I should be MUCH HAPPIER TWELVE YEARS LATER. Myi "chances to meet the world out there"??? I've been to Europe FIVE TIMES since 2012, spent the entire month of September in 2014 IN ITALY and then went to France for a week. TWO CRUISES one through the Panama Canal. I learned to RIDE A HORSE, got thrown so stopped. I did VOLUNTEER WORK for a church. I went to THERAPY I took MEDICATION I tried to socialize with the people here not one of whom has anything close to my level of education nor my sophistication, they're small town people, I grew up in Manhattan.

I've owned TWO HOUSES. I had a RADIO TALK SHOW. I was highly respected in my field of expertise. I haven't sat around DOING NOTHING. There are no people "around me", they're unable to connect with me and I with them, we have nothing in common except for our species.

Where do you get off judging me? HOW DARE YOU consider it even remotely possible to understand what it's like for a woman to have LOST HER DAUGHTER? Probably better to keep ignorant opinions to oneself.