@wlhickey, Your response made me laugh. "I'm great." When I fill out forms that ask me to rate my health from excellent to poor, I'm always stumped. Other than a note in my chart that says I have stage IV lung cancer my health is excellent. Today, I'm great.
I hope the roller coaster of emotions calms down a bit for you going forward. Everything that you are feeling is normal. Receiving more information soon should help too. Knowledge is power and helps to feel that you have some control over the situation, especially if you are presented with treatment options.
When is your next appointment? Are you seeing urology, or an oncologist?