@msannette79 Welcome to Mayo Clinic Connect. Reaching out like you did is a good first step to address the PTSD issue.

Now that the doctors have told you to not take the medications that helped you, can you go back to them and ask what they recommend? Like @kamama94 mentioned, you may need to explore more options to work with your PTSD and anxiety. I think that many of us who have chronic health issues go through anxiety or depression, as we learn to live with these new limits in our lives. We have to get creative and find what will work for us. A new hobby, renewing an old one, doing volunteer work, all can help us "get out of our own way". Sometimes a distraction is the best method. Journaling can help, also. Do any of these sound doable for you?

People aren't going to hate you for opening up to them. You may find that they have been concerned but didn't know how to approach you to help you. Being vulnerable can be scary, and you will find quickly those who help you feel most comfortable. Just my experience speaking here.

May I ask what condition you had that they had to take your one kidney?
Ginger