With the help of three providers; psychiatric, primary care and psychotherapists, plus a pulmonologist added for good measure. I will be free of all of the listed medications by the end of the year.

The only psychiatric medication I am on at this time is 20mg of Latuda. Frankly, at 20mg it is more to make everyone else feel better.

I still take a low dose of lisinopril because of slightly elevated blood pressure, a side effect of the psych meds. Tamsulosin for an enlarged prostate that is no longer enlarged, (psych med side effect), will be discontinued at my next doctors visit. And 100mg of exogenous testosterone to address my suppressed testosterone levels, another psych med side effect.

So, one psych med and two side effect meds all expected to be gone in another thirty days plus/minus a week or two.

The questions my providers now must wrestle with is:

Am I cured?
Was I misdiagnosed to begin with?
Have I simply willed myself well?

When I went to see a psychiatrist fifteen years ago I was not taking any medication for anything.

The answer is simple, I was misdiagnosed as have been millions of other people.

The psychiatric medications caused, (and continue to do to millions of other people), all of the other problems.

Healthcare of all types, but especially mental health, is a built on a medication first model. When all of the evidence is clear that what I eat, how much I exercise and how well I sleep account for the overwhelming majority of my health and wellness. This is not my opinion but science.

Unbiased credible research by the leading institutions is everywhere. A simple Google search answered all my questions. Shame on me for not asking them sooner.

The society I live in is organized around the idea that wealth creation is an end unto itself. That society gave rise to Big Pharmaceutical Companies. Big Pharma came up with the best business model ever created.

Give the masses a pill to address the anguish they feel from living in a broken world. If that pill can numb them sufficiently they will not ask any questions. Better yet, if it can make them even sicker so that they take more pills we, The Company can make even more money.

I do not blame big Pharma for giving me what I wanted anymore than I blame the tobacco industry or the alcohol industry for giving me what I wanted.

Shame on me for asking for easy fixes to complicated issues. In a Capitalist system if there is a need someone will meet that need. That is the strength of Capitalism.

My desire/need for easy answers destroyed my life and the lives of those I love. The drug dealers just sold me what I wanted.

Who is to blame?

It doesn’t really matter.

I am a product of my genetics and my environment. I can not change my genetics, (yet anyway), but I can change my environment.

I choose, to the extent I actually choose anything, to live in an environment that promotes wellness not illness.

I didn’t know before, now I do.

The rest is on me.

Thank you for taking the time to read my post.

I hope you live in peace everyday of your life.