Wow!

Thank you!

THANK YOU
THANK YOU

Thank you so much for this link. 💝
Intelligently written, well organized article checked off several boxes for me. I really connected to Ms. Siem's comments about how she could still feel so depressed despite being on meds, and for a such a long period of time to boot. Such was with me, but I never made that light bulb moment. Neither did the professionals who prescribed the meds. How truly a sad commentary on our medical system. For me, it was realizing just how I felt overwhelmingly UNWELL and not in control of my body, my mind, my very being. That's what led me to decision to cease the drugs that created the intense hallucinations, confusion, dead-brain, forgetfulness, etc. I've already explained in prior posts how arduous those journeys were. There were days upon days that I felt so miserable while detoxing my system (with help from specific doctors). The most that I regret: That I was in such a dimension of haze during the days leading to and on the very day of our younger daughter's wedding. I was at the tail end of weaning off sertraline (Zoloft) and was on drops of a tincture (mixed within a bit of liquid), but the whirlwind of activities and sleep deprivation left me feeling disconnected to my body. I was seemingly an out-of-body observer who saw that I did make every effort not to let anyone know just how I felt internally, mingling among the group of 50 guests at a resort in Cape Cod, smiling, meeting and welcoming guests, going from table to table during the meal to make sure everything was fine, focusing on how elated our daughter and her husband looked. During the ceremony and throughout the reception, whenever they looked at one another (especially during their first dance) their deep gaze of love filled my heart with such joy, and helped me to forge through to the end of the evening. Then I collapsed into the bed at our room and allowed the rush of relief come over me, and fell into a quasi restorative sleep. I had survived, and I realized just how exhausting it had been to literally give the performance that I had prayed I'd be able to pull off.
There are other connections that I made with what Ms Siem underwent, and I am in awe with her courage to put everything into print, exposing herself so vulnerably, but in having done so, I agree with the author: Brooke Siem can, does, and will help so many people suffering from depression.