Lioness, I am tired of disappointing my family and also me. When do I get to do something fun again. We are under a microscope for WHAT? I stopped my Methotrexate today. I bet I feel better in a few days. I am so done taking this by injection and Infusion. Let talk Pain meds then I will talk your Methotrexarte again. I cannot handle the pain. PERIOD It is getting to the point I am going to ask my grandson to get me some Marijuana. What choice do I have. Dying from this is not worth it. My heart is working overtime.