I, also, can identify with all who feel as you do. I injured my back 7 years ago while skiing. Really did a job on my lower back and buttocks. They gave me a 4-6 week time frame for an L1 stress fracture to heal, which it did. I was feeling pretty good for a few months. Then, all kinds of pain erupted. Since then I've been to more docs than I can count. Right now, I am seeing a new pain specialist who is trying to figure out what new drug to put in my pain pump that will have some helpful effect. Like you, I wake up every morning with hopeful expectations of a better day, but then it's "same old, same old". What helps me are two things: 1. Have faith that God is still in control and has a purpose for this mess. 2. I try to plan out a couple of projects that I can do and accomplish. Oh, and I try to remember that there are still lots of folks out there who have it a lot worse than me. Remember all the lousy stuff that the Apostle Paul went through for his faith, yet "considered it pure joy" to be persecuted.