I’m trying to constantly acknowledge that, today, I’m completely healthy. I have my baseline of fear and anxiety, but to live in it, alone is wasting time. Literally. I want to be watched closely, now, very closely. I won’t fake positivity, but I also won’t wallow in negativity. Obviously, I’ll keep reading and asking and hope the medical community comes up with new early detection and treatment methods. Good luck to all of us.

Well, I've changed my insurance so that I can consult with a Dr. at Sloan Kettering who has experience with (myxoid) leiomyosarcoma, so I've postponed radiation until then. The consultation should be close to December 1st. I was about to begin radiation, but I'd rather consult with her first.