Comforting to know that I am not alone. Thanks for replying, I can empathixe with you. Over the past decades I have been at many different places with my situation. Right now I am in a good place. Recently moved and was saved from the worst place I have ever been. I was no longer circling the drain I was down in the trap, and one push from over. Thru my wife's obediance and a great big pull from God. I am now on the counter and moving away from the sink. The move has caused me to look for a new pain doc. I have been with the previous doc for seventeen years. Nervous but praying for the right doc. I don't know if you are on facebook or use messenger, but I would be interested in hearing your story. Also I am researching new developments and would be interested in any procedures or medications you have tried. Tried to post reply containing my email. Was not allowed as a new member of site. I will try again in a few days.