Hello @vimarbarr and welcome to the Caregivers: Dementia support group on Mayo Connect. I am so sorry for your recent loss.

I would ask you to be gentle with yourself. I have no doubt that you did the best you could under the circumstances. I'm sure that neither you nor your mom could have known the extent of her infections. It just wasn't something visible or known and that is not something that you can be responsible for.

Alzheimer's has a way of taking away from the patient the ability to feel and understand what is going on with them. It is unfortunate but part of the disease process.

It would be good to find something that you can do to take care of yourself now. Perhaps some counseling would be helpful for you to put the past few years of caregiving in perspective? What types of support system is available to you?