If you put your faith in people, you will ALWAYS be disappointed. Put your faith in God -- and leave it there. The apostle Paul said this: "Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." Sounds like you are reliving the past and that is never conducive to good mental health. Pastors (and their wives) are human. They get busy. They forget. Other things crowd into their schedule. God, on the other hand, always has time for you.