Good morning, @jjevitts

I'm sorry I missed checking in the past day or so while traveling for my follow-up appointment, which is later today. I WISH I could sit next to you or walk (pace?) by your side as you wait for your biopsy and hear what's so, and what options may exist for your particular situation. I have looked back through your earlier posts and am not sure what your original endometrial cancer diagnosis was...was it adenocarcinoma, or something else? I think I remember it was stage Ib then. If I have been understanding so far, you won't know what the mass is (whether it is a metastasis of the original cancer or a new cancer) until the biopsy results are available.

I have so little to offer other than caring, wishing you relief from the fear and pain, and hoping with you that there are options you can explore once the next piece of information comes through. There may be in-person support groups at U of Michigan, or there is the one through Mayo Connect (TEAL St. Augustine) that meets monthly, I believe. Seeing others' faces might help. I attended once and found it helpful, but haven't yet had a chance to attend again because of timing.

It just keeps occurring to me that you can't even search Google right now, in any useful way anyway, as you don't yet have biopsy results. When that is me, I am stuck in limbo, I just need someone to hold my hand (not trying to "cheer me up," and sometimes, yes, trying and making me laugh a little) to move and to breath. If I can walk somewhere beautiful, somewhere much bigger than me and my frightening and painful situation, it seems to help, as well. Prayer or meditation (there is a specific one that I learned many years ago that helped...called, "Tonglen" meditation, which I read about in a book by Pema Chodron. It was something about breathing in the "awfulness" of my current situation, then breathing it out into to something big enough to hold it...like a lake or a huge valley, or the ocean, or the universe. I did this while in the depths of grief earlier in my life and found it comforting.

Oh...just sending my care and hope to you, @jjevitts

Gynosaur

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