@domiha - I imagine we can all relate to you! We have lost something very special and I would think grieving our loss is natural. We all mourn at different rates and I would have difficulty believing that every single one of us doesn’t have an occasional pity party. When I get down, I think of words of encouragement a fellow Neuropather on here posted, @njed - “Focus on what you CAN do, not CAN’T do!” That keeps me focused on the positives and help accept the changes. Ed also likes to say “Keep Moving” but sometimes I find that my butt needs a chair, and I’ve found renewed enjoyment in utilizing my seated time for moving my hands & mind with reading and puzzles, watching TV or a good movie, and just giving my legs the proper rest and refueling they need until I’m re-charged. I sympathize with you and I’m hoping you find a good balance of happy activities with this new stage of life we’ve been handed.