Don’t think that way. Stay positive listen to the doctors and if you need second opinions get them. I live in Virginia as well. I went to the VCU Massey Cancer Center. They treated me with respect and I wasn’t a number. If your insurance will allow you see them I would check them out. I find out in February that I had a 2 stage Breast cancer. Had reconstructive surgery in May 2022. They checked my lymphs while in surgery so I did not feel those awful shots. I had 2 lymphs that were invaded with cancer. They took 4 lymphs as of day I can tell you I am cancer free.
My breast cancer was estrogen positive taking anastrozole for the next 5-7 years. Positive thinking will get you through this. Do things like you enjoy. Going for walks clears the mind. Keep family and closes friend close. Tell them what your thinking it keeps or get a journal and write down your feeling thought that helps
Remember you are stronger than you think!!!!