Hi @dragonspark, I'm so sorry that you had to come here, but I'm glad that you did. Please know that everything that you are feeling is normal, it's such a scary time. This is a good/safe place to vent those feelings, because we've all felt them. If you can, try to focus on what you know now, and not the long list of what might be. Your Lupus may impact treatment, but it may not, depending on what's driving the cancer. Like the others, I'm wondering when is your appointment with the oncologist?