I’m truly sorry for your sad situation with your son, it’s so painful for you to see him this way and to feel completely at a loss as to what you can do to help him. I have had some experience with this but it was my husband.. I went to different doctors for help but it was usually meds and he wouldn’t take them..this is not unusual in these cases because they are afraid and trust becomes a huge issue. It would take me too long to tell you my sad story but I learned that it really depends on where you live…I live in Canada and thirty years ago they were closing many hospitals and the mentally ill people were totally neglected and ended up living on the street..most of them don’t like hospitals but at least they were getting their meds as an outpatient. I hope you’re in a good place with lots of available medical help, it’s something I call going on a mission…the help is out there and you will have to look for it anyway you can. I know it’s difficult but there’s hope for you and your son and I will pray for you, stay strong.