I can empathize. To look at me I look pretty normal except for a cane. But<br />
inside my body is screaming. briansr<br />

Yes the know what you mean<br />
I have been having a hard week, and also have to take care of my mom who<br />
has Alzheimer's, and RA. My sister came directly from Texas, and Four of my<br />
five brothers. I had them all come to see what I have to do for her and to<br />
understand how much I needed there help and support, especially when I'm<br />
when we I'm having flair ups. Just because I have learned to live with my<br />
pain and discomfort with walking and getting up don't mean there's no<br />
suffering going on. They seemed to understand and said they would help me,<br />
and try to understand that see don't mean to be so unkind, she thinks we<br />
are trying to take her freedom, she thinks she's bath and it's hard to make<br />
her understand. Everyone one of us has to understand she remember, are use<br />
her mind like she us to. I know I have a problem that might one day cause<br />
me to never walk again. So, because I look alright when they see me they<br />
think I'm fine, now my sister has seen me on my worst, so she understands.<br />
I pray every day but know my bodies wore out but let me keep my right mind.<br />
Our good Lord has keep my. I still work with my husband in the ministry and<br />
do my counciling. But, if the pain is in unbearable I stay in bed, where my<br />
husband put shelves for my books and chairs and a tv-vcr so my six<br />
grandchildren stay with me and watch cartoons are a princes movie. And if<br />
Miss church my pastor records the services account I get to hear. I'm lucky<br />
so far, I haven't had to be on antidepressants, sometimes it feels like I<br />
could be, I just call for my grandkids and it seems to work. I hope All of<br />
our friends that are on this site stay strong and courageous on these<br />
journeys we are on and I pray that we all have peace of mind and that we<br />
can minister to others by our experiences. Love an Prayers salena54<br />
<br />
salena<br />

@salena54 I, too, work and care for my mother who has Alzheimer's and Crohn's (disease of the bowel which causes horrible diarrhea, she has had two sections of bowel surgically removed but it continues to spread). I have RA, Sjogren's syndrome, fibromyalgia and spinal stenosis. I work part time (afternoons). My daughter-in-law stays with my mom the few hours I am away at work. I can truly empathize with the difficulty of taking care of your mom and yourself! It is extremely hard when I have a flare. Sometimes I feel so guilty as we just sit on the couch and watch t.v on those days or she naps and I nap. All of my siblings (three sisters) live out-of-town. Closest one is 6 hours away. Luckily my husband is helpful (he still works full time). My son and daughter-in-law and their 2 year old son live with me. Sometimes this is good and sometimes it just ads to the stress. My mom does seem to like my grandson's company, but gets upset if he is too wild or is throwing a tantrum (like most two year old kids do). I also have three dogs which my mom likes very much. I also get great joy from my dogs. I try to keep positive and count my blessings. I can at least get out once in a while if my daughter-in-law agrees to watch my mom (and I watch my grandson for her). My mom is doing okay. Her memory is really bad. She can not cook, clean, do laundry, make even a simple meal, etc. She can still walk, even if it is slow. We sometimes get out to a movie or the store together. Sometime she has accidents when we are out, so I always carry clean underwear, clean pants, clean socks and a pad plus her Imodium. I am on anti-depressants, which have helped me a lot - has also helped with my fibro pain. I know how it is for family to not truly understand the depth of your pain and what you go through. It is hard enough to take care of a loved one with Alzheimer's together with another chronic disease, but to do so when YOU also have chronic diseases is even more difficult. But I know it could be worse, so I am thankful for my blessings. I am thankful I can still walk and work and take care of my mom. I have been managing my medical conditions for over 15 years, so I know pretty much what will cause me to flare, and I try to pace myself. Sometimes a flare can't be figured out. But I just do the best I can with what I have! My grandchildren (I have four - two live out-of-town which makes me sad as it includes my only granddaughter; one is 13 so he is into "teen" things; and the other grandson lives with his parents in my upstairs rooms) are a source of joy to me. Anyway, hang in there! There are others fighting the good fight, too. Those on this site can understand when others don't. They know you are in pain even though there are no "outside" indications - like a cast or something. They understand the unbelievable exhaustion even though you've had 9 hours of sleep! I am praying for you and all those on this site who face the daily struggle. There is light in darkness. There is hope even in the pain. There are reasons to smile and to even laugh. There are reasons to be thankful!

@salena54, I compliment you for your ability to find ways to cope with everything that's on your plate. My wife and I deeply appreciated our siblings who cared for our parents. We knew how much it affected their lives, and whenever we could, another sister and I helped give my sister a break. She was dealing with her own serious health problems, as you are.

After writing this note to you, I looked back and found that your mother had stepped into her new home with Jesus. How good for her, but maybe hard for you. After I wrote
what's below, I read your note from June, so I came back and added this paragraph.

I know it's been a while since you wrote this note, and I hope you're doing okay.

I was a minister for 35 years when I retired on Social Security Disability at age 55. I was approved for mental health disability the first time I asked, thankfully. I'm treated for depression, PTSD, anxiety disorder, suicidal ideation, and chronic pain from idiopathic peripheral neuropathy. The pain issue started about 5 years ago, and I've seen several neurologists, and various other doctors, leading me now to a pain specialist because none of the medications usually prescribed for neuropathy have helped me. I understand that the day may come when I'll be in a wheelchair, if the condition continues to progress.

So, I support you in the pain/mental health balance. For me, depression was pre-existing to the pain, but I know full well how pain drives the depression. I've been taking antidepressants and anti-anxiety medication for 11 years, and they have saved my life, I'm sure.

One of the therapists I saw 5 or 6 years ago recommended a service dog, and I had recently lost my border collie and rescued a Border Collie, Australian Shepherd mix for companionship and therapy, so I trained him to be a service dog. (I found training requirements online.) He died suddenly in February, from some sort of brain event, which was very hard. In March, God led me to Sadie, whom I rescued from the Humane Society shelter, and she's doing very well with her training. Having a psychiatric service dog has made a big difference in the level of depression I experience. An important part of her service is being with me everywhere I go. I haven't had a panic attack out in public since I've had a dog.

We live out in the country, and are thankful every evening during our couples prayer time for all of our blessings. I know that having a home on ten acres, where it's peaceful and quiet, is therapeutic. I'm continually grateful for the peace of God in my heart. What would we do without that?

So often, as I read the stories of people with chronic pain, I feel guilty about complaining about my pain, when I see how easy I have it, compared to many others. I don't think I can even count all of my blessings.

I pray that you'll continue to be aware of God's presence, and with the Spirit's strength and guidance, you'll be able to keep finding ways to walk through the difficult times. God bless you and your husband.

Your pain is sufficient to you. I was an alcoholism and drug counselor and native American inpatient and outpatient treatment program director before fibromyalgia and became a personnel manager afterwards. I was vice president of the Seattle chapter of International Personnel Managers Association before being disabled at 53. 20 years later I'm still here and walking around. I died 4 times and was told several times I'd never walk again. Life is a gift, grab it.

Hi Mikee, nice to meet you here. I am living in Sweden and have had fibromyalgia for 15 years. I was diagnosed with “unknown allergy” and given disability pension. I later moved to Singapore and the climate there was good for me. My disease got better so I started to work again in the IT-industry. Some years ago it got very bad again and I couldn’t continue to work, ended up in hospital with several chronic diseases, a heart attack with following heart problems and sleeping problems. I was also diagnosed with fibromyalgia. My wife and her family was very abusive towards me and as sicker I got as worse it became. Today I know for sure that the traumas I did go though in my marriage has caused both the heart and sleeping problems as well as the fibromyalgia.
I filed for divorce and had to leave Singapore. Back in Sweden doctors don’t care about people any more and all the money goes to refugees. I get some help for my heart problems and sleep problems but no one wants to address the fibromyalgia. The departments at the hospital are fighting about which one should handle it so no one does. I also have the right to get money from insurance for my living and disability pension again but I cannot get in this situation when the doctors don’t want to do anything. I got treatment in Singapore that really helped but it is so hard to get it here so I get worse day by day. I have been in a wheelchair in Singapore and the treatment helped me out of it. Now walk with a walker and will soon be back in the wheelchair if I don’t get treatment soon. It has also been close for me several times but I am keeping on fighting. I don’t think there is anything else to do.

Hi to all
I'm an OA sufferer with gait and balance problems. I've had TKR 3 years ago and have extensive spinal OA (ie stenosis). Last October was diagnosed with bone on bone OA in both shoulders. Rheumatologist told me I needed bilateral shoulder replacement. I"m limited in activities as a result but no way am I having that surgery at my advanced age, 81 years old.I tried the steroid injections for the shoulders with no help there. After I pleaded with my PCP for help in finding a legitimate physician certified to prescribe Medical Marijuana she came thru with a referral. I live in NY where it recently was legalized. It's quite costly and you have to experiment with the dosage to get the best results. It does make me a little sedated and I do not drive or do any work that requires my utmost concentration. The best relief is from the sublingual 20T/1C ratio. The 1T/1C capsules I use at bedtime. In my experience have to take 600mgs of ibuprofen at least every 8 hours with the MM. I seem to be losing strength and stamina each day. Daily life is challenging. Getting dressed is an adventure.
But I'm still plugging along. So if it is possible to obtain the legal medical marijuana don't hesitate to use it. The opioid epidemic is not from persons with chronic pain and the issue of over prescribing for sufferers is not the cause. Stay strong and keep writing to this site.

@goodtime376

Keep standing up for yourself. You know best what's best for you. MM is legal here, as well (so is recreational use), but, as you said, it's expensive. I acquired enough to make 2 lbs of cannabutter, and then I made a double batch of chocolate chip/mint chip cookies with a pound of it. The mint helps cover the Marijuana flavor. I made them on the large side, and it takes just more than 2 cookies to relieve the burning pain in my feet. 3 makes me loopy. I'm a retired conservative minister, and never imagined that I'd advocate for the use of Marijuana, but pain can make us more open to the options. I'm getting a spinal cord stimulator tomorrow. Maybe I'll be able to toss the cookies. Hmm. That doesn't sound quite right.

Jim

Has anyone heard of Dr. Wallace and his 90 for life program? His claim is there are 90 minerals and nutrients we need daily and is helpful and/or a cure for many conditions, including osteoarthritis.