I totally understand and know the feelings. My heart and prayers are with you and all who suffer from these horrifying situations. It's saddens me that people who have never experienced anxiety/panic attacks feel like it's all in our heads and feel we can easily overcome such episodes by simply getting busy and thinking about something else....it's not that easy!!!!!!!

Hi Sleepstate,
How terrible for you to have that anxiety so often or at all for that matter. Have you tried praying? God is there for you and he listens. Just talk to him like he's your best friend and he is! Tell him your fears and how you worry about dying. (God's in charge of that you know.) God's also in charge of the entire world and your personal life. He's there to help and he does. He's helped me through many problems over the years from illness to stopping my car on an icy road when it was heading for a drop-off! All I did was say, "God, do something!" and he did. The car came to a complete stop on the very icy road! Then, I asked him to help me get the car turned around and he did that too! I got home safely!

Also when you think of dying, remember that when you die you will be in Heaven; safe from fear and pain. Any loved ones you leave behind will be up there eventually with you. This includes animals too. My mom and I saw our St. Bernard dog, Max after he died. So, I know Max is up in Heaven and I will see him when I die.

I hope my comments help and don't offend. I just wanted to share some good thoughts and experiences with you. I will say a prayer for you.
PML