Hello, I'm really sorry for your loss and for you having to deal with this illness. I hope you have family or / and relatives you can count on to support you through this difficult time. Or maybe people in your community or the church if you belong to a congregation. Unfortunally l don't have much advise to give you as l'm dealing with my situation totally on my own. Wish lots of strenght and perseverance, all the best💐🙏