My daughter doesn't want to speak of my Major Depression/Anxiety Neurological Disorder. She has not allowed me to really talk to her about it and I doubt that she has ever researched it. My psychologist thinks it is her fear that she will end up with the same thing? I don't think there are many people who understand mental health issues unless they actually have experienced problems themselves, and I have found that attempts to discuss your problems with others gets you a very blank look in their eyes [LOL! 😕😉] and a quick change of the subject! It's okay. Maybe I would be the same way? I had always wished there were more mental health support groups that were more specific to your Dx. The groups I tried always seemed to center on addiction. Forgive me, I must jokingly respond to your comment that "they think it is all in my head". I have always joked with others about my mental health, that "they think it's all in my head........and, hey, IT IS!", in my case, with the neurological disorder! I think you just have to keep laughing! 🤣😁😉 That's why this Mayo Connect is SO GREAT! Please, don't give up, this is a place where you can share, ask questions, and get the support and empathy you need, trust me. I am new to this, but I consider it a Godsend. My friends do, too, because I have shared with them all about it. Hang in there, and post, post, post.........
❣️P

I can understand where you are coming from. I too have physical and mental health issues. It was recommended to me to try seeing a psychologist. I am going to see one next week. I thought it would be worth my time.

Sounds like you really need an antidepressant like me. I really agree with someone on here that depression is genetic. 3 of my 4 sisters take antidepressants. I have been on them since the late 80's. I am now 79. I halved it 6 months ago but found I was spending too much energy preparing for the next anxiety attack so went back up. I am fortunate that I have a partner that listens to my issues as I do his and friends that we are completely open too. 50 years ago our culture was more religious and we all felt safer and secure....even though in the midst of the cold war. Now we have had 50 more years of education and knowledge and most of us no longer can believe what we were taught about a God who takes care of us. We have grown up!. Now we have to learn how to be self-confident and take care of ourselves. This is maturity. Please see your doctor and start on an antidepressant. Give it 2 to 3 weeks to kick in. I was amazed at what a different it made. I no longer had suicidal thoughts. I saw the world and myself from a more compassionate view. You will get better. Go for it please.