Hey, you got it right!......looking for the small wins, the little joys......no matter what it is for you! I know the health issues and making it hard to keep fighting, but what is your option? Trust me, I know how hard that fight can be, and how lonely that fight can be, but giving up is not an option, is it? I think that is what you are saying about not wanting to sleep in your car and not making it in a shelter or on the street? It sounds to me like you are a fighter! We all have our moments, our days, when we give up some, but I think the ones who don't jump back into the fight [and pardon me for saying this] are dead, or completely lost. I know the PTSD, too, and it is another fight. But, you posted here, you ARE fighting, you are doing the work, and you deserve kudos for that! I don't mean this to be preachy, but are you taking steps to find your way out of that relationship? Because, I think that would make the fight so much easier. I wish there were some actual way I could offer you help with leaving. A place, etc., but I am sure the help is out there. Keep on, keepin' on! You are worth the fight!
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