Hi, I’m so happy to have found this group. To be honest I’m a mess right now and my head has been on a swivel since July and was diagnosed with cancer after my colonoscopy. I had surgery September 11 and am feeling pretty good. The whole process of tests, finding a surgeon and oncologist has been a blur. My youngest daughter has been my rock! I have been blessed with good health my whole life and cancer sure has rocked my world and not in a good way. I keep most of all the negative thoughts to myself so I don’t overly worry my family and friends but think it might be easier to “unload” here to people I don’t know. It’s the unknown about what the next steps will be that keeps me awake at night. I see my oncologist this week and will find out what he tells me I need to do. I’m so nervous and scared about it all. I remain positive despite the anxiety.