Hello friends.
It's been a while since I posted. Have been dealing with confusing medical issues. At last post, I was getting an EUS performed on 2 lymph nodes and suspicious area found in pancreas. The doctor performing the EUS could not find those nodes or the suspicious area and told me my remaining pancreas post whipple was very healthy looking. That was about 6 weeks ago or so. As of last scan 1 week ago, I now have a mass on my pancreas and more lymph nodes. I will be starting a modified folfirinox chemo treatment on Monday. I originally was given folfirinox for first cancer treatment, but was unable to tolerate it, so this time around they will be playing with the dosages. My back hurts all the time now. And, I have to say, I'm pretty scared of what will happen to me.
Something strange did happen after I left the oncologists office on Wed. I was filled with a feeling of peace and knowing I would be ok. I had that same feeling after my very first go round with cancer 20 months ago. Just a wave of peace and feeling I would be ok. My daughter, who was in my hospital room, told me she had that same feeling wash over her.
So, on the one hand I am dreadfully afraid, and on the other hand I feel confident that I will beat this cancer for the second time. I guess I really dont have a question here. Thank you for letting me voice e my fears. I appreciate all of your support, and if you or a loved one is going through a similar challenge, I offer my blessings and prayers to you.