@solom174 I was curious and I found the documentary on Wendy Whelan and watched it. Thank you for sharing that! I always have loved and appreciated ballet and saw many of the great dancers live 50 years ago including the director of New York City Ballet in this film as a featured dancer. I even have my programs with photos from back then! That was really beautiful. Perhaps that sounds odd to hear, but aside from ballet being really beautiful, her determination and inner strength was beautiful to watch. It's about loosing something you really love, and trying to find it again. I know that too in my own story because I was loosing what I loved the most which was to paint because I am an artist, and I was unable to control my arms. It got to where pushing a shopping cart or driving a car exhausted me, and I would have to nap for an hour, and the last painting I did before spine surgery required me to support my arms because I could not hold them up. I had my own mountain to climb during my recovery, and like Wendy I did that and reawakened my talent. I know this is different for everyone and a different path that we as spine patients walk. I know for you, your story is still unfolding. When you enter into spine surgery, it is hard to know what the outcome will be and how that will feel. You grieve what is lost and you look for the strength to overpower the emotional loss and to find yourself again among the changes. It may take a long time, but that is a journey worth taking.