Thank you @dfb. I've read many of your contributions to this forum under the different topics, and just wanted to say that this particular post was the most helpful and hopeful - for me.

Understanding - and getting validation from a professional - that you have a range of feelings that may be deeper and broader than some seems like a reassuring thing to hear.

Beyond that, as someone who has searched all my life for connection with another through a monogamous relationship, it is that broad range and depth of feelings that can also be a kind of barrier to connecting. In other words, how to find, have and maintain meaningful connections when (most) others are not as deeply affected by life, and may even turn away?(...from what they deem overly sensitive, intense or uninteresting takes on life?)

The first answer is, of course, that is not the kind of person/s for you; but there are very few, if any, that seem - in my lifetime - to be interested in being along for this ride. And I've lived in many different states, had a very interesting set of career tracks, and met a lot of people and done a lot of different activities and had many experiences along the way.

I am thankful to - finally - be in a monogamous relationship now with a good person; both of us - having been single all our lives before - are learning how to live together, but I do wonder what's ahead - and who doesn't?

(We) (all) will see - but I still cannot believe how difficult, saddening and self-questioning it has been all my life to not find anyone while feeling I was living my best life, was/am a good, conscientious, intelligent, attractive person, interested in contributing to the quality of life of others, and treating all with respect and value. I do think it has (a lot!) to do with our "family of origin", as you mentioned, and that is a lifelong effort to unravel and move forward from.

But, ... Onward!! Here's to the Journey!