I feel for you. Make sure you buy germicide bleach and wipe down everything you touch clean bathroom alot and wash hands

I have no answers only support to offer. I too started with a possible CDiff diagnosis two months ago after suffering from diarrhea for four weeks following a course of Clindimycin for a UTI. I have taken two rounds of Flagy,l which help but somehow I always seem to slide back to the semi solid stool stage. Not sure if I truly have CDiff. Gastro doctor thought I have SIBO and also had me go through CT scan of gut which was normal. Big relief but no answers. What I have found is that there is no linear or straight line recovery. I can do OK for one or two weeks and then have a couple of days when my gut becomes irritated and I go back to the diarrhea. I understand your frustration and depression. Iam following a low FODMAP diet, eating no gluten or dairy and sticking to what seem safe foods but have lost a lot of weight . My next step will probably be colonoscopy, though I had a normal one a year ago. Other theory is I may have something called microscopic colitis. I am trying to nourish my body, keep as normal a life as I can and try to not have dark thoughts. It seems to take a long time and trial and error to come up with a diagnosis or not. But it is hard for me not to feel at times like God is punishing me or has forgotten me. You need to find a doctor who listens and cares because this is a scary process without medical guidance. I also take Align, Florastor and slippery elm as supplements along with my fiber and vitamins. I take a loperidol after each loose BM and wait until next one to see if I need one. I am fortunate in that I am self employed and have a bathroom near my office. I rarely go out to eat with friends because I am afraid of restaurant food. Not sure how it is prepared. Don’t drink alcohol, sodas or caffeine. Never been a smoker and thought I was in fairly good health at 63 until all hell broke loose about four months ago. I found the story of the poster who is in his/her nineties inspiring. I aim to be that person. Don’t know if this post helps but I am here as much to give as to receive support. Getting to see the right doctor takes a long time, then getting a diagnosis takes much longer, etc. In meantime, we are miserable, losing weight, thinking we have cancer, etc.

To my knowledge a hospital must treat you if you go to ER. Otherwise try VSL probiotic and stay on it. Research probiotic foods and avoid sugary foods and gluten. Try any calming activity you can. I feel for you and have a brother without insurance having moved to another state. We need insurance in America to cover these situations.