I understand! I've always had back problems, but remained active. But I fell down the stairs from the second floor, had back surgery, then fell flat on my back 5 months after the surgery. Never out of pain. Can't stand up straight. Even the cane doesn't get me very far. I can do some grocery shopping because I use the cart for support. It's the right height to enable me to straighten up and hold onto it. I have found that the more I make myself endure the pain I'm building some strength. Not easy and very discouraging. Of course it has completely changed my life and not for the better. I need to have another surgery but the recovery takes at least 18 months. What if I fall again before it heals? It's scary. Having to use a cane makes a person feel useless and old. Like you, I have a pain mgmt doctor.
I think the best thing for me is to get involved in a senior citizen group. They play cards, games and more activities. Right now , don't have the energy or interest. My youngest daughter and I lived together about 3 hours away from my other children.
But she was diagnosed with a Glioblastoma brain tumor in December and passed away on April 6th 2023. I'm still reeling from the shock and grief. Now the neuropathy is starting . My husband was diabetic and he suffered unbearably with it.
So it does frighten me. I do have an appointment scheduled with a neurologist for November. Hopefully he can help slow it down.
I know that I'm rambling, but know that I emphasize with you and that you are not alone.