Not a whole lot changed in my house, but outside the front door of course lots changed.
Besides the fact that I was repeatedly threatened with withdrawal of medical care at the doctor office or hospital if I did not get multiple covid jabs, of course.
So, as a person with multiple health conditions I had no choice but to get vaccinated repeatedly to have the ‘privilege’ of obtaining access to medical monitoring and follow up.
That’s how things were horrid, because I didn’t want the vaccines, and I’ve had some significant side effects including repeated pericarditis that I now take a medication to treat (never had that before in my life), and bouts of increased brain inflammation which temporarily significantly reduced vision, balance, and ability to stay awake. Horrible stuff.
However, in terms of life at home, things actually improved: there was increased access to connecting via remote sources online, and the increased access to click and collect and online shopping (eventually), which helped me get by because at the time I was on an immunosuppressant (significant dose), and needed to live in isolation. Prior to covid, I would get constant insults, jibes, and overt ridicule for wearing gloves and a fitted mask, and then suddenly I’ve got people asking me what types of masks, sanitisers, etc, work! What a turn around; people went from the ones kicking dirt in my face, to the ones then digging me up, wanting my help. However ungracious this behaviour was and has always been, I am one to humbly and gracefully stay removed from participating in tit-for-tat, and I gladly helped anyone who asked me, because that’s who I am, and nothing that anyone can and will do to me will change the good nature I was blessed to be born with, which is and has always been an asset (theme: don’t let your experience of others or the world remove you from you)🙂🌺
When things started to get back to normal, I lost many of the remote online connections, because these facilities were closed down in favour of catering to people who could be in physical contact with others, however I am unable to participate in that kind of interaction, so my life went back to one of both physical and online isolation, in terms of social connectedness. Now, I have been living in isolation - lockdown, is the label that international community now understands this phenomenon to be - since 2018, November. Lockdown. For years.
Imagine the state of mind that occurs when you haven’t been hugged. For years. Now imagine the kind of mind it takes to remain sane. For years. In lockdown. For years.
I lived on tinned tomatoes and plain oats with water, for around 6 weeks after I ran out of other foods, because of closures of supermarkets, because there was absolutely no way I could obtain food. I have no family, friends, or relatives, social services, or supports, so I had nobody to help, and that was the only food I had left in the house. I rationed myself, with discipline, and calm, knowing that I may have more weeks yet to cater for…however, the supermarket got stock, and they started allowing people to click and collect - this literally saved my life, because I had lost around 3kg per week from restriction of calories while rationing the food I had in the house.
Covid was particularly challenging in some ways, good in others, and now, has settled back into a pattern of distance, isolation, and a sense that I live skirting the periphery of society once more.
However, I am now complete in desocialisation, and I find seeing people face to face as an overwhelming experience, and I feel the need to remove myself from the proximity of other humans.
Not to worry; sometimes life is like that, right? 🙂🌺