You, Rachel, and others in the group here, are SO INSPIRING. Without getting too metaphysical I just want to say that those of you living your lives in such a state of ongoing crisis (my wife is dealing with PN not me) I truly believe it is for a reason. God or the universe or however you want to think of who/what is in charge here has some plan. I truly believe this is not for no reason. I am so sorry for the suffering which I see my wife go through as well as what I read in the various forums about living with pain, but all I can say is it is good to see you not lose hope. Although your world may become very very focused on the pain to the exclusion of much that others enjoy and take for granted, I have seen firsthand the strength that comes out of it. So the fact that through all of this you are not giving up Rachel is very inspiring. Best, Hank