@mguspixi25- Hello. It's nice to meet you. Emotional baggage might be a great topic.

I agree, I don't want to be in an emotional prison either. At first, it's hard to escape this. It's comfortable because you are emotionally with your husband, even if the emotions are horrible.

What was done to you was very unkind. They were taking their disbelief and anger out on you. As you know, with your history, heart attacks can be tough to stop. Their reactions most likely fueled your guilt. Like you needed more help, right?